Preggy

Did some shoot for my friends.

to be continued.........

Nathan's 6th birthday

Today is nathan's 6th birthday. No grand celebration coz he have class and Pie is in Ireland. His tatay gave him a birthday call this morning around 6am ( his wake up sched ). We're going to celebrate his birthday on saturday pero sa house lang ( to be safe! ). To you anak WE love you so much and I'm so happy to see you day by day....

Carlo's angels

I'm happy to see a simple smile from Carlo's face today. I can still see the pain pero at least he is better than the last time I saw him. We didn't have the chance to have a long talk with Carlo but before his interview someone asked him "Did you get any sign?" I'm not sure what kind of sign medyo 3 seats away kasi ako but then Carlo said he asked for it and he got a text message "a ringing tone" from smart and the song is "fallin" na sobrang na-touch ako... This is one of my favorite song and di ko natiis na medyo tumulo luha ko...

and this is the lyrics of the song:

our litle conversation
are turning into little sweet sensation
and they're only getting sweeter everytime

our friendly get togethers
are turning into visions of forever
if i just believe this foolish heart of mine

i can't pretend
that i'm just a friend
'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be

chorus:
i think i'm fallin', fallin' in love with you
and i don't, i don't know what to do
i'm afraid you'd turn away
but i'll say it anyway

coda:
i think i'm fallin... for you
i'm fallin' for you...

whenever we're together
wishing that goodbyes would turn to never
'cause with you is where i'll always wanna be
whenever i'm beside you
all i really wanna do is hold you
no one else but you has meant this much to me

i cant pretend
that i'm just a friend
'cause i'm thinking maybe we were meant to be

..the pain never truly goes away, it just gets smaller and condensed, tucked away in a corner somewhere in the deep recesses of the heart. There it remains at a constant low level ache, which with time may be overridden. There may be times when a site, a smell, a place, a song, an anniversary or birthday will trigger the old memories and the intensity of the grief and loss will return again. These feelings often arrive without warning and can be just as painful making one feel as though he/she was experiencing the loss anew.

You will embark on a fair sea,
and at times there will be fair weather, but not always.
You will meet storms and overcome them.
You will take it in turns to steer your boat through fair weather and foul. Never lose courage.
Save harbour awaits you...in the end.

A Letter from Carlo Cruz ( husband of Leslie )

Got an email from Carlo Cruz a friend of mine in Lawson. Take time to read and Pray for all the souls who died in that incident.

Let us continue to pray for Leslie and to those she left behind.

Subject: From Carlo Cruz

Good day everyone,

I wish I were writing under different circumstances.

I would like to inform you that my wife Leslie Cruz
was part of the casualties in the Glorietta 2 Mall
bombing in Makati City, Philippines. She was supposed
to have a minor out patient surgery at Makati Medical
Center at 230pm.

I had taken a leave from work to accompany her there.
We dropped off our daughter, Amber, at my parents
place in QC to babysit at around 10am. We then
proceeded to Makati and was there at 1230pm. Since she
had been fasting in preparation for her procedure, she
wanted to move around and listen to some music while I
grabbed a bite to eat. We parked at the basement of
Park Square 2, and headed for the Glorietta 2
entrance. We parted at the top of the escalator, she
turned right towards Filbar's while I went left
towards the restaurants. That was the last time I
would see her.

Around 120pm, she had called me so that we can meet at
the Glorietta 2 exit just in time to make her
appointment. As I made my way there from Glorietta 1
through the connecting hallways, and was about to turn
the corner, I heard 2 deep thumps and the shock-wave
from the blast hit me. At that moment my heart dropped
as I knew that the origin of the blast came from the
same place where we were supposed to meet. I tried
getting to where my wife was, but the dust was too
much and it was as if I was staring at a white wall.

I still tried to convince myself that she was able to
make it out, and that after ringing her mobile without
a response only meant that she dropped it in the
confusion. After 6 hours of searching from Makati Med.
to Ospital ng Makati, the blast site, and back again
to MMC - with the help of all the people I could get
hold of, that I was able to get confirmation in what
the state of my wife was.

My Dad and Uncle signaled me in from the ER of MMC. My
Uncle (who's a doctor) asked me to describe Leslie's
appearance to another group of doctors. I saw in the
eyes of one that the description made sense. Instead
of confirming it to me, they huddled together, then
brought me to a small examination room. It was only
through a digital camera that I was able to confirm
(and deny) that she was indeed gone.

I have so many regrets. I should have met her sooner.
I should have ran instead of a brisk walk. I should
have not chose to park where I did. I should have
braved the dust and went in the blast site. I should
have ...

Today's the 4th day. It is still terribly difficult to
breathe, let alone wake up realizing that your source
of strength, your best friend doesn't lie beside you
on your bed. That my deepest worry is when Amber
starts asking for her Mama.

I am glad that Amber's too young to understand the
loss and pain. In time I would like to tell her the
details of how her mother died, but more importantly I
would like to raise her as how her mother lived - a
loving person, strong willed, decisive, caring, and
nurturing. She has always cared for her family and
friends, and sacrfied her career for being a full time
mom and home maker.

As with all couples we had our ups and downs - none of
which I regret not going through. The sweet is never
as sweet without the sour. For almost 4 years of
marriage, we've finally hit our balance in life only
to be taken away in an instant. I have no regrets
about our marriage. She has loved me and Amber beyond
her capacity. I will always love her.

It is my first time to write to egroup as I've lurked
and watched emails being sent to and fro. All I want
now is that for each of the couples here is to cherish
each moment that we spend with our loved ones. Pretty
simple to say, very easy to take for granted.

Thank you all for the prayers. I would still like to
ask you to please include Leslie in them until her
40th day so that the path to God's kingdom is well lit
and she is no longer in the dark.

Sincerely,

Carlo Cruz

PRANING!!!!

After what happened to Carlo sobrang takot ako na di kami magkita... kaya miski di ako makatulog I always see to it na safe home si Pie sa condo nila... kung kaya ko lang hilahin ang araw para mag November 15 gagawin ko.... For the past three weeks na nasa Ireland sya sobrang abnormal ang araw ko... I can't even go to the market and buy foods to eat. Last sunday we spent the whole day in my sister's house... sobrang wala akong gana...

Hope that my day will be back to normal soon...

Gloriettta 2 bombing

This is not the first terrorist attack but then this is the first time where I really felt sadness in my heart. Aroung 1:45 pm October 19 my officemate/friend announce there was a bombing in Glorietta 2. I ignored it and continue with my work. After a few minutes one of my officemate announced that one of our officemate Carlo can't find his wife. I heard it but it didn't sinked in coz I'm really busy with my work but after a few minutes I stopped and I realized that Carlo's wife is missing coz they were at Glorietta 2 and there was a bombing at Glorietta 2. I grabbed my phone and gave Carlo a ring. "Hi Carlo. Anong nangyari?" that is the first word I asked Carlo... "Di ko makita si Leslie. We were supposed to meet at the entrance of Glorietta 2 kung saan yun bombing..." Carlo asked for our prayers na sana Leslie is safe. We called at the hospitals to check if Leslie was admitted and we also checked at the internet the list of names injured on the said bombing... Pero WALA... Every now and then I'm trying to call Carlo para malaman kung nakita ba nya si Leslie. after 4 hours wala pa din... around 7pm when I called Carlo he's really crying and I can't understand any single word from him. All I know is she can't find Leslie. I tried to listen to him and gave him some words that might help him to calm down. BUT HOW??? how can I help the person who can't find his wife? He ended up our call by saying "Sige Maro baka kasi tumatwag na si Leslie" after 10mins tumawag ulit ako... By this time he is calm but still blaming himself of what happened. While we were talking, I heard a voice coming to Carlo and said something... I didn't hear the exact words but Carlo shouted "Whaaatttt??? OH MY GOD!!! ............." and those words confirmed that Leslie died. I was shocked and didn't notice that Carlo hanged up the phone... Seconds bago nag sinked in sa akin na wala na si Leslie. I was driving and I stopped and cried out loud. Iba pala feeling pag may kilala ka na nakasama sa ganun na tragedy. I can't believe in an instant mawawala sya. Few hours ago before the bombing magksama pa sila.

I drive fast going home to see my kids and hug them.... Sobrang natakot ako na mawala mahal ko sa buhay... I wanted to hug Pie but then he's in Ireland. I just prayed and ask his grace to make us safe everyday and may we always have a happy life with each other.

May God bless all the soulds of the innocent died and may they find peace.

Condolences to Carlo and his family. God will always be there for you and for Amber. Just keep your faith and you'll never go wrong.

Fieldtrip

I was still lonely missing PIE and trying to go wid my normal days. Tuesday evening around 930 i sat in front of my pc then 'googling' till 3am or till my eyes drop. I was still busy downloading when my son woke up and said "Nanay today is my feldtrip. Sabi ni teacher be at school by 630am." and I said "Kunin mo yun diary mo." Nathan gave his diary and I confirmed that he should be there by 630.

So I prepare his things and take a bath and since coding ako I go straight to the office then trying to take a "nap"....

Testing my new phone

From Boracay to Sta. Lucia.....

Nagha-hang na kasi phone ko so Pie decided to get a new phone for me kasi baka daw wala pa akong kitain sa phone na ito pag di ko pa pinalitan. So after dropping off my sister and her husband we go straight to sta. lucia. After almost 4 years say byebye to my 6630 phone. I bought this phone around 30+++ but then binili lang sya for 4 thou!!! my gosh!!! That's why I decided not spend money for just a PHONE... Now I'm using Ericsson k550i cybershot daw... sobrang hirap magdecide what phone.. Before gusto ko PDA/phone pero napapaisip ako kasi super mahal and isang lens na yon.... tapos sabi ko kay Pie Motorolla na lang kasi pang text and twag lang naman... kaso pag bumibili ako 3 months warranty lang binibigay... ( ang arte noh! for the price of 6thou hahanapan mo ng warranty ) anyway I end up buying this ericsson kasi nga cybershot daw... hehehehehe

What a nice feature in this phone is I can post straight from my phone... hehehehehe

WIG

Yndee keep on asking me if pwede sya magpa cut ng hair and Everytime I asked her "ano gusto mong gupit?" she always answer "yun short na parang wig" and this is it. Her new hair cut. This is the second time she had a hair cut.